The Missing Cross to Purity

The Life of Stephen Crisp

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Stephen Crisp (1628-1692) was an eminent Quaker minister for thirty-five years, frequently ministering in Holland and Germany in addition to England and Scotland. His writing has great detail regarding his twenty year struggle to find truth, as he marched through the various deficit sects and kept returning to the world in frustration, always with the Light of Christ reminding him of his continued unredeemed state. His experiences are both educational and encouraging to any who seek the fullness of Christ. He was a typical example of a middle class Quaker, well educated, diligent in business, and owning a competency sufficient to free him for continuous travel spreading the word of faith. Quaker ministers served without pay, and his means of support was as the maker of biaze, an imitation green felt material used on billiard tables and as door coverings on servant quarters to deaden sounds.

In his narrative, he omits or skips over lightly his trials and difficulties, including the deaths of two wives, the deaths of his children from the plague, and several harsh imprisonments. His writings were always careful to encourage and build up the weak believers, and his strong faith truly shows that: Love bears up under anything and everything that comes, is ever ready to believe the best of every person, its hopes are fadeless under all circumstances, and it endures everything. 1 Cor 13:7. He always gave praise and thanks to the Lord for whatever he faced, whether world-considered good fortune, or calamity.

When you read his sermons, you will see clearly that Stephen Crisp's gift of ministry from the Lord was to exhort those not yet in the Kingdom of God, to raise their efforts in denying themselves on the inward cross and seeking the further grace of God to bring them to the finish of the race and abundantly enter God's kingdom. However and curiously, in this Journal Crisp does not describe his entry into the kingdom, yet in one of his sermons, he said, "under the government of Christ, (in the kingdom), in one day one has more joy, pleasure, and delight than a thousand days outside it;" and there are many references to the kingdom in his other writings on the site, such as in sermon #1 : "What a blessed and happy state they are in, who have been converted and changed; who have been translated out of the kingdom of darkness, into the kingdom of God's dear Son."

William Tuke, Crisp's 1825 biographer, gives us the following description of his subject:

It is not unusual with those who write memoirs of themselves, to dwell with too much particularity on those events in their history which are of little interest to others; and the editors of such productions have more frequently to exercise a friendly discretion in the omission, than in the addition of circumstances. But the sketch which Stephen Crisp has left of his long and laborious life, is chiefly the history of his religious course—of the means by which he was led to the knowledge of what he believed to be Truth—and of the labors in which he was engaged for its promotion. He has not told us the name of his parents—the period of his birth—the manner of his education, or given us any particulars of his family. Nor has he mentioned more than two of the occasions, on which he underwent imprisonment or other sufferings, for his steadfast adherence to the principles which he had embraced, and which he so zealously advocated. There is here an indication of that true greatness of mind, which distinguishes the Christian hero. He is engaged in a great and arduous conflict; and he forgets, in the importance and glory of his enterprise, the little incidents which affect chiefly his own ease or distinction.

The very feeling account which he has given of his own childhood, affords a striking instance of early religious impressions, not of a temporary kind, but exercising from year to year a strong influence on his conduct. The course of his reflections at a very early period of life, speaks of an unusual development of mind; and, when only from ten to twelve years of age, he appears to have entered with earnestness, into the religious discussions of the day. He says, “he went with as much diligence and cheerfulness to the reading and hearing of sermons, as other children went to their play and sports.”

It is not certain in what religious profession he was educated; but I incline to think, from his having mentioned that he found out the meetings of the Separatists when he was seventeen, and from some other passages in his Journal, that he was brought up in the profession of the established [Episcopal] Church.

As he approached manhood, the love of pleasure appears to have obtained a temporary and partial ascendancy over his mind; but, during a considerable portion of this period, he seems to have devoted himself zealously to the improvement of his understanding, by reading, and by the observation of men and things. For a time, however, he says, that he took pleasure in the company of  evil men. After two or  three years continuance in this state, he was brought deeply to mourn that slavery and captivity of sin, under which he labored; and was made willing to do anything which would enable him to overcome evil.

Under these feelings, he appears to have joined the Baptists; and though, for a short time, he was again drawn into evil company, he soon returned to his religious pursuits; and I apprehend it was at this time that he became a teacher of a separate congregation. He still found that he lacked a power which was not to be obtained by the compliance with any outward forms, or by the mere performance of religious rites.

He was still suffering from the inability to conquer sin, when 17 year-old James Parnell visited Colchester in 1655. Stephen Crisp was then twenty seven years of age. Of the effect of this young man's preaching upon him, and of the influence of the principles he was then led to imbibe, with the various and deep conflicts into which his mind was introduced, his own Journal furnishes a very striking and affecting relation.

It is a remarkable circumstance which I may be allowed here to mention, that the Society in the counties of Cambridge, Essex, Suffolk, and Norfolk, was first raised and became very numerous, principally through the labours of three instruments, James Parnell, William Caton, and George Whitehead, none of whom, had attained the age of twenty years. Despised and persecuted as were the people who held the principles which Stephen Crisp had now embraced, he appears not to have hesitated in his choice of them, as soon as he believed them to be consistent with truth, and calculated to promote his progress in righteousness. From this period to that of his death, the steadfastness of his character was remarkable; and no doubt appears to have arisen in his mind as to the correctness of the principles of the Society of Friends, to which he had then attached himself. For a few years, he appears to have been diligently engaged in the affairs of the Society, in and about his native place; but, though much occupied in private ministrations both spiritual and temporal, it does not appear that he acted in the capacity of a public minister of the gospel until the year 1659, about four years after his convincement. At this period he believed it was his duty to visit Scotland, to bear witness, as he says, "to the Name of the Lord to that high professing nation."

From this commencement of his public labors, he was engaged, with but little intermission, in the great work to which he had been called; and he was soon not behind the chief laborers of that active day, in endeavoring to spread the knowledge of Christ, and of that redemption from the power of sin in this life, which is alone to be attained by an experiential acquaintance with his Spirit.

The cause in which he had embarked, and the course of his labors, exposed him to considerable sufferings. Joseph Besse mentions him, amongst many others, as being imprisoned in Essex, between the years 1656 and 1659. In the course of his journey into Scotland, while engaged in prayer in the meeting at York, he was violently pulled down, and haled out into the street by the Mayor of the city.

It appears from his Description of the Church of Scotland, "that he received many gross insults during the course of his public ministrations in that country; and he particularly mentions the behavior of the people of Balfceith, where, he says, "what riot the soldiers appeared as a stop to their murderous purposes against him, their works of mischief had more appeared."

In the year 1661, Stephen Crisp was taken from a meeting which he was attending in a private house at Harwich, and committed to prison, the justice writing his mittimus before he had taken his examination. In the following year the Mayor of Colchester broke up a meeting at which Stephen Crisp was present, and committed him to prison. In 1663 he was again imprisoned at Colchester. There is little doubt that this imprisonment was for more than a year. In the year 1668 he was imprisoned at Ipswich; the occasion or duration I cannot ascertain.

He was eminently useful in strengthening and confirming the infant Society. He appears to have visited the meetings of Friends in every part of the nation; and the interest which he took in the welfare of each particular part—the discernment and judgment with which he was favored—and the spirit of meekness and Christian charity which accompanied his zeal, led him to be very highly esteemed, and looked upon as a Father in the Church. His Epistles, some of which are addressed to particular places or districts, and others to Friends in general, a very small part indeed of which have been printed, strikingly exhibit him in this pastoral character; and there was perhaps, with the exception of George Fox, no individual who had upon him a greater share of the weight and charge of thay  new society than Stephen Crisp.

His sermons are some of the strongest, straight-forward, logical appeals that I have ever encountered. Aimed particularly at those within the Quaker ranks that had not died on the inward cross of self denial, they clearly identify the errors of complacency, the dangers of the enemy, and the rewards of diligence.




by Stephen Crisp

Oh! all you saints, and all you inhabitants of the earth, let the name of Jehovah be famous among you, for there is no God like unto him; and let his mercies and judgments be remembered and recorded from generation to generation; for infinite is his goodness, and his unspeakable loving kindness. And although no man can fully recount his loving kindness extended to him, yet let all men testify of his goodness, and declare of his mercies by which he is engaging the sons of men to himself, and winning and gathering again the scattered to the true rest. Therefore, David well said, "I will remember the years of the right hand of the Most High; I will remember the works of the Lord: surely I will remember his wonders of old. I will meditate also upon all your works, I will talk of your doings." Psalm 77:10-12. Who can feel his goodness, and partake of his love, but it will constrain a testimony to him? In the sweet remembrance of his manifold innumerable mercies, I am even overcome. For my whole life has been as a continued series of mercy and goodness, and in all my days he has been my upholder. When I knew him not he was near to me; yes when I rebelled against him, he ceased not to be gracious; his covenant stood with his seed Christ; and for his sake he spared me. His long-suffering and patience were extended towards me, else I had been cut off in the days of my arguing. But oh! well may I say he is a God gracious and merciful, long-suffering, patient and full of compassion. Oh! let this his name be proclaimed to the ends or the earth, and let the ears of the heathen be opened to hear the sound of his praise.

Surely the Lord has had an eye of tender compassion upon me, from the day that he unformed me, and has appointed me to his praise, and to witness forth his goodness. For as soon as I can remember, and as soon as I was capable of understanding, he made me understand that which consented not to any evil, but stood in my soul as a witness against all evil; and showed that I should not lie, nor steal, or be stubborn, or be disobedient, but should behave myself in meekness and quietness, and set truth before me, as that which was better than falsehood. This same witness, even in the days of my childhood, ministered peace and boldness to me, when I listened to the counsel of it; but there was a contrary nature and seed in me that was of this world, and not of God, which inclined to evil, and unto the way and manner of this evil world, as most of all suiting the carnal mind; and an eye began to open in me that saw what was acceptable with man, rather than what was well-pleasing to God.

And that eye being daily ministered unto by the various objects, and examples of vanity, a delight sprung up in that which was evil, and my senses became exercised with vanity, by which the pure seed became oppressed and grieved from day to day, and begun to cry out against me; and condemnation began to be stirred up in me, and fear entered, where before, no fear was, and the pure innocence was lost. And then, having at any time done or spoken any evil, the [divine] Light, or pure principle in me, would manifest it to me, and show me that I ought not so to have done. I felt condemnation, which I knew not how to escape. But then the evil spirit that led to transgress, would always stand ready to help in this need. Sometimes it stirred up the subtlety in me, to plead a reason for what I had done, or a provocation, or a good intent, or else to deny, or at least to mitigate, the evil of my deed, and so to stop the mouth of the witness of God, and to see if could escape the condemnation of the witness of God and procure my own peace.

But alas! this was a miserable help, for the light would often shine through all this, and quell my reasonings; and showed me, when I was but a child, that in a pure reason that is from God, there is no reason for any evil, let provocations, temptations, or examples be what they can, or will. So I was often stripped naked from all my reasoning and coverings; and then I learned another way to get ease from the judgment.

When I was very young, about seven or eight years old, when judgment overtook me for evil, I would yield that it was so; and therefore thought that I must do something to please God again, and so after this I learned to pray, and to weep in secret, and to covenant with God for more watchfulness, and so I thought for a season I was as one unformed burdened from my weight. Yet this best state was accompanied with many doubts and questionings, whether my evils were blotted out, or not: especially when I saw that I was again overtaken by the evil spirit, and led into evil thoughts, words or actions. For the [divine] witness cried even then to have my whole mind given up to the Lord, and that in thought, word and deed, I should serve him, but I did not know that it was from God; but this I knew, that I lacked the power to answer the requirements of that in me, which witnessed against evil in me, and this lamented day and night.

When I was about nine or ten years old, I sought the power of God with great diligence and earnestness, with strong cries and tears; and if I had had the whole world, I would have given it, to have known how to obtain power over my corruptions. And when I saw the carelessness of other children, and their profaneness, and that they did not, (that I could discern), think of God, nor were in trouble, though they were far more wicked than I, in their speech and actions. Ah, Lord I thought, what will become of these? Seeing so heavy a hand is upon me, I can find neither peace, nor assurance of your love.

Then the enemy would tempt me to rest, and be quiet, in that it was better with me than with others, and my reason strongly urged me to be at peace with myself. But the pure witness followed me, and would not leave me, but pursued me night and day, and broke my peace faster than I could make it up, for my mind was in my own works, and I could see no further. I heard talk of a Christ and Savior, but oh! I thought that I already knew him.

My ear was lent to the discourses and disputes of the times, which were very many; and one while I was swayed in one thing, and blown in another direction at another time. Sometimes I heard men dispute that God sees no sin in his people; then I said, surely I am none of them; for he marks all my transgressions. Other men talked of an election and a reprobation of persons before time. I considered that diligently and thought if that were so, and I could but get so many signs and marks of an elect soul, as might bring me to quiet, then I would keep it; and not be so tossed as I had been. I grew a very diligent listener and admirer of the best ministers, as they were reputed; and went with as much diligence and cheerfulness to reading, and to hearing sermons, as other children went to their play and sports.

And when I heard anyone speak about that point or election; and how a man might know if he were elect, and would in their dark wisdom lay down signs of a true believer, and of an elect soul, then would I try myself in their measure, and weigh myself in their balance, and so gather up a little peace to myself finding such things in me as they spoke of for signs; as, a desire against sin, a loathing myself for sin, a love to them that were counted the best people, and a longing to be rid of sin.

But alas! They were only the blind leading my poor blind soul. This was not the balance of the sanctuary; and when I had gotten a little peace and quietness, and thought to hold it, alas, it would soon be shattered and broken. When God's pure witness arose in me, that I must be weighed in the true balance, oh then I found I was much too underweight. Then anguish would again kindle in me, and a cry was in me: “Oh where shall I go? And what shall I do? That I may come to a settled state, before I depart from here and are seen no more."

In this woeful condition, the thoughts of death would bring a dread over soul and body; and trembling and horror were often upon me, fearing that I was set apart for a vessel of wrath, and must bear the fiery indignation of God forever. And oh, that word, 'forever,' would often be terrible to me, but I did not know how to prevent it.

Now I began to perceive my own insufficiency, and my lack of God's power, and that it was not in my own power to keep myself out of sin, and the wages of it was death, so that I was in a great quandary, sometimes thinking I had better give up seeking, and sometimes thinking, if I perish I had better perish seeking. Here the good obtained the upper hand for a time, and I became a diligent seeker, and prayer, and mourner, and would often find  the most secret fields and unusual places, there to pour out my complaints to the Lord.

When I was only about twelve years old, my general and constant cry was after the power by which I might overcome corruptions, and although I heard the teachers of those times, daily saying, none could live without sin, and the doctrine of perfection held as a dangerous error, yet that did not abate my cry; though indeed it did often weaken my belief of obtaining; and so made my prayer almost faithless, and without success. But I knew that without the power of God I must perish, let them say what they would, and I could not count myself saved while I was captivated with a corrupt and rebellious nature, let them I say what they could. I remembered the words of Christ, “He that commits sin is the servant of sin,” and I knew I was the servant of sin.

In this iron furnace I toiled and labored, and no one knew my sorrows and griefs, which at times were almost intolerable, so that I wished I had never been born, or that any end might be like the beasts of the field; for I counted them happy, for they had no such bitter combat here as I had, nor should endure that hereafter, that I feared I must endure after all, for I saw my misery, but I saw no way to escape.

Then I thought I had best not keep my misery so close, but disclose it to some that might be of help me. But well might I say, miserable comforters I found them all to be; for they would tell me to apply the promises by faith, and suck comfort out of the scriptures; and tell of the apostle's state, mentioned in the 7th Chapter of the Romans,* and tell me it was so with him, and yet he was a servant of Jesus Christ, and such like deceitful coverings as they had covered themselves with, in like manner dealt they with me; not considering how the apostle called that a wretched and an undelivered state, as I might well do mine. But all these things took but little place in me; my wound remained unhealed, and he that wounded me and was able to have healed me, was near me, and I knew him not.

*There are scriptures in Romans that people twist to try to prove Paul was a confessed perpetual sinner, but that is because they get the tenses of his expressions mixed up. For example, in patiently trying to explain how sin and salvation occur, he describes a condition before salvation as: What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body of death? Rom 7:24. They say, see that proves Paul still sinned and nobody can be perfect, while ignoring the context of his statement and also ignoring his later statements, either of which totally negate such a conclusion. Verses 14-25 of Romans 7 use the Greek "historical present" tense, to dramatize the event described as if the reader were there watching the event occur. The Greek historical present tense can be correctly translated to English as either present tense or past tense; however, in English, the past tense makes better sense in context with Paul's previous statements in this chapter in verses 6 and 9 that he had died to the law, as well as in Paul's other writings. The translations of the Bibles have almost universally chosen the present tense, without explanation of the historical present verbs, and leaving the impression that Paul remained a sinner, unable to stop sinning, unspiritual, and sold as a slave to sin, (like the translators were themselves and believed mandatory for anyone); so people twist the scriptures to justify doing nothing, therefore assuring their destruction. Quoting Fox: "Paul, who cried out of the body of death, did also 'thank God, who gave him the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.' 1 Cor 15:57. So there was a time of crying out for the lack of victory, and a time of praising God for the victory."

I went groping in that dark and dismal night of darkness, seeking the living among the dead, as many more did, but it was so dark that we that did so could not see one another. As for the priests and professors of those times, most of them would boast of experiences, and of zeal, and of assurances of the love of God, and what comfort they enjoyed by thinking or contemplating on the suffering of Christ for their sins,* etc. Alas! I thought, I can contemplate on these subjects as well you, but my wound still remains fresh, and I could  see that I was like one of the crucifiers, while I lived in sin, for which he died.

*Contemplation on the suffering of Christ for one's sins was the prescription for Christian growth established by the Roman Catholic church, and exhibits how the Protestants maintained many of their arch enemy's erroneous traditions.

My soul longed after some other kind of knowledge of him, than that which was to be attained by reading, for I saw that the worst, as well as the best, could attain to that. I dared not lean upon them so much as I had done, but then I began to be somewhat more loosened in my mind from depending on the priests, (though I had not completely left them). For now I began to discover the meetings of those then called Separatists, and to hear their gifted men (so called), whose doctrine, I took notice, savored more of zeal and fervency, than most of the priests did. Neither did I see them so covetous to make a gain of preaching, not yet having come to see how they coveted greatness and applause of men.

I was often affected with their preachings, but still the former bond was upon me, and they yet strengthened it, namely, that if I were not elected,* I could not be saved; and how I might know that I was elected, no man could tell me to my satisfaction. The fear of this would often dash my comfort, and then I began to take notice of the loose walking of such Separatists, yes, even of the teachers among them, how that they were not yet redeemed from foolish jesting, from idle words, from anger and passion, and sometimes it broke out brother against brother, and so ran out to parties, and to breaches and schisms, and rending their churches, which they often both built and pulled down with their own hands. I also saw how inconsistent they were, sometimes letting in one doctrine, sometimes another, tossed with winds: but not a word could I hear how I might obtain power over sin. Over some sins and some lusts I had, but over all I had not; and nothing else would satisfy me.

*Crisp refers to the erroneous Calvinist doctrine of predestination, so popular in that time within the Independent congregations, who chose their own preachers, and within the Presbyterians, whose preachers were chosen by their clergy heirarchy. This doctrine stated that there were some, (the elect), who were predestined by God to be saved from Hell. Regardless of their sins, the elect were going to heaven; while all others were all predestined by God to Hell, regardless of what they did, trying to please God.

I began when I was about seventeen or eighteen years of age, to seek yet further, and hearing of a people that held forth the death of Christ for all men, I went to hear them, and after some time I came to see that there was more light, and a clearer understanding of the scriptures among them, than among the former. So I began to be conversant with them, and frequent in their meetings, and come to be established in that belief, that there was a dear Son of hope, and way or means of salvation for all people, and none positively by any eternal decree excluded, as by name or person, but as unbelievers and disobedient.

This ministered comfort for awhile, and I set myself to relieve, and to get faith in Christ, and to presume myself a believer, and found it a hard work, even too hard for me, though I cried aloud many times to have my unbelief helped. When I saw sin prevail over me, alas, I said, where is that faith that purifies the heart, and gives victory; mine is not such. Then the pure witness of God would arise and testify against me for my sin, and the more my understanding was enlarged, the sharper was my judgment. Now it grew so sharp, that I knew not how to endure it so well as I had done in my childhood. The rough and rebellious nature being now grown strong, and I in the prime and strength of my youth, and seeing how others spent their time in pleasure and vanity, a secret lust and desire kindled in me to partake of their cup.

Yet for a time I was kept in as if in a horse’s bit; and rather, took delight to take notice of the varieties of wits and inventions that were of the past, which I found by books, being much given to reading, and so gathered many sayings and sentences of wise philosophers and sages, and in part obtained the knowledge of many ages gone before me; and these things I thought were as an ornament fitting me for conduct, and for the company of wise men. And alas! All this while my self stood uncrucified, and all that had been gained was just a sacrifice and offering to my reputation and pride, which should have been kept in the cross. Yet this served me for awhile to feed that unwearied searching, seeking soul; and many things that I met with, became as a life unto it for a season, and I began to bless myself, that my time was no worse spent.

In this time I found two drawings, one strong drawing and enticement was into the world, wholly to give myself up to the pleasures, delights, and vanities of it: and another drawing was unto godliness, watchfulness, seriousness, etc. I, poor man, knew not what to do, as to religion. I saw several, and felt a religious inclination in me, as I had done from a child, and could have been well content to have taken up some form of religion, but was sorely discouraged, because I could see none of them held forth that which I wanted, either in their life or doctrine, that is, power over corruptions, without which I knew religion was in vain, and not answer the end for which I sought to take it up.

So I desisted taking up any form, and kept in the wild field of this world, and wandered up and down, sometimes to one sort of people, sometimes to another; taking a sharp inspection into their lives and doctrines, though I confess, I left my own garden undressed, until many noisome weeds overgrew it.

I began to lose my tenderness of conscience, which I had had, and began to take pleasure in the company of the wicked, and in many things to become like them, and came to be captivated more than ever with mirth and jollity. I often sang when I had cause to howl and mourn, and fell to gaming and pastimes, and presumed upon the mercy of God, and had a secret belief, that God would one day show his power, and bring me out of this state. I therefore often had a dread upon me, of running so far into wickedness, as some others did, and was kept from many gross evils that my companions ran into; and in this was the infinite goodness of the Lord shown, which when I came to see with a true eye, it broke my heart; yes, my heart and soul praises the Lord for his mercy, who kept me when I knew him not. And though provocations and temptations were many, that did attend me, yet I was preserved out of many abominations, and must say and acknowledge, as the Lord said to Abimelech, it was the Lord that preserved or kept me.

This kind of course of life went so for about two or three years, until a weariness came upon me from it. Many times in the very midst of all my mirth, the hand of the Lord would be heavy upon me, and his righteous judgment would kindle in me, and put a stop to my course, and then would I lament me in secret, and sometimes complain to others of my sore captivity and slavery to sin, and often would I be arguing and conferring with them that were counted experienced Christians how peace and assurance might be attained. Some would say by reading and applying promises, but that way I had tried so often and so long, that it took now but little with me, for I saw I was in another state than that unto which the promises were made. Others said the only way was to be obedient to the commands and ordinances of Jesus Christ, and to be conformable to the primitive saints, in walking in church order and communion, where everyone had the strength of many, and all the church was bound to watch over every member.

I listened to these counselors and was willing to do anything to find the power, so that reproach should not keep me back. So I took up that ordinance, as they called it, of water baptism, expecting then to have found power more than before. My will wrought strongly to bridle and keep down that airy part and sinful nature, and for a season strove to uphold and maintain myself to be in a better state than before, though the virtue that should sanctify and wash me I did not feel, my mind being abroad, and the reasons that kept me were not the operation of the pure love of God in my heart, and his grace prevailing in me, to teach me, but rather an eye to the reputation of my religion, and that I might not seem to have run and acted all in vain.

These reasons held but for a season, before the temptation grew too strong for my will, and the devil entered his own grounds, and prevailed upon me, and led me captive into sin and evil, and drew me into vain company and vain sports, and delights, and pastimes again as before. Then I sufficiently saw I lacked what I wanted before and had grasped but at a shadow, and caught nothing but wind, and that my baptism was short of John's, who did indeed baptize with a baptism of repentance, and prepared the way of the Lord, and made his path straight. But mine did not do so much, and therefore was much more short of the baptism of Christ, in which the fire was to be found, that should burn up what was offensive to God, and grieved his Holy Spirit, and then fill me with his Spirit, which takes delight in nothing that is corrupt.

This baptism [of John] I saw was lacking, and therefore a dissatisfaction began to grow up in me, both of myself, and of my way; and I testified to the elders, (so called), of the church, that God would shortly overturn all our worships and religions, which stood in outward and carnal things, and would make known some way a-top of them all, that should stand forever. When they inquired what that way should be, I confessed I knew not, but waited to see what it might be.

About those days many exercised themselves in talking and discoursing of a people called Quakers, reports of whom I listened, but though I listened with great diligence, I could hear no good report of them, but much harm, and many false and wicked lies were cast upon them. Only this I took notice of: that they suffered cruel mockings, and grievous sufferings patiently. I did expect, that when the way of God was made manifest, it would be hated and persecuted; yet I thought that would not deter me at all, or frighten me from acknowledging it, and walking in it, if once I knew it. But forasmuch as I heard they held perfection in this life, that was a thing the old wisdom of the serpent could not reach or join with, but I reasoned against strongly, in that dark fallen wisdom in which many are still fighting for sin, which is the devil's host, whom I now see to be no better than the host of Magog, fighting against the Lamb, and his innocent life, saying in their hearts, you may rule in heaven if you desire, because on earth, you shall have no place; no, not one soul to bear rule and sovereignty over. I can but pity thousands who are fighting the devil's quarrels in this matter, but having faithfully labored with them in my generation, I leave them that are willful and stubborn opposers, who will in no way receive that which is perfect in this life, but are to receive the wages of imperfection in the life to come.

But I say, in this same fallen wisdom I reasoned about many ways, too many now to name, against the truth, the fame whereof I had heard as the scripture speaks, while I was in death and in the way of destruction. But I had not seen a messenger of this truth, but longed much to see one, wishing night and day, that our parts might be visited by them, as I had heard others were. At last the Lord sent his faithful servant and messenger of his everlasting gospel, James Parnell, to our town of Colchester, about the fourth month, 1655, and in the twenty-seventh year of my age, who came in the name and power of the Most High God, in which he turned many to righteousness, both there and in other countries before, of whom some remain, and many are fallen asleep.

When I saw this man, being but a youth, and knew not the power or spirit that was in him, I thought to withstand him, and began to query and seek discourse with him; but I quickly came to feel [that] the spirit of sound judgment was in him, and the witness of God arose in me, and testified to his judgment, and signified I must own it; it being just and true. On the same day and hour I testified, that all our rods of profession would be lost or devoured by his rod, alluding to that of Moses and the magicians of Egypt, which is and shall certainly come to pass. That day I went to a meeting, and heard him declare the everlasting gospel, in the name and authority of the Lord, which I could not with all my wisdom and knowledge withstand, but was constrained to own and confess unto the truth.

[From James Parnell's memoir, we have this account of the meeting and subsequent communications:

The very interesting and instructive account, which Stephen Crisp gives of his own experience in religious matters, previous to his meeting with James Parnell, his feelings on seeing a stripling, coming forth against the Goliaths, who had been too powerful for his own more matured years, and with greater acquaintance of the weapons of war, the inward contempt which he felt, when he thought to triumph over him by argument, and his subsequent convincement of the Truth, afford us striking proof of the power and authority of James Parnell’s ministry. He was young, diminutive natured, and of a poor appearance; yet the wisdom of man was made to bow before that Spirit by which he spoke, and of which he was the instrument. The following original letter of James Parnell, obtained from the Colchester Monthly Meeting, was addressed to Stephen Crisp, probably a short time after his convincement. It is without date:

Friend,-In that stand, and to it keep your mind, which lets you see your enemies to be of own house; your imagination is an enemy; your wisdom is an enemy; that which has been precious to you is now your greatest enemy. Therefore now sacrifice your precious, and yield up to the death, [of self] that the Just may be raised to life and the righteous Seed be brought forth to reign and to be your head; and so will the head of the serpent be bruised. And this in your measure you will come to understand, as you dwell low in the Light, which shows you your condition; for whatever exposes your condition is the Light. And that eye must be kept open, which the god of this world has blinded, but by which the children of light see the god of the world; and the tempter is known, resisted and denied. So with this eye make your watch constant, and let not the fool's eye wander abroad, which draws out the wandering mind after visible objects; but stand in the warfare, not giving ground up to the enemy, nor to his delusions; but be content to become a fool, that all selfish thoughts may be judged. You will receive wisdom from Him, who gives liberally and does not criticize so that you can discern and know the enemy's tricks; but in the cross to your own will and hasty mind, the gift of God is received. Therefore, it is said, "He that believes is not in a hurry." Therefore, do not become weary of the yoke; for in faith it is made easy, and the impatient nature is crucified, and patience has its perfect work: therefore, be still in the measure of Light, which exercises your mind towards God; and purpose nothing, but let your thoughts be judged, and let the power of God work, so that He may be seen to all. By this principle alone you may be led and placed on the cross to the carnal part of yourself, by denying self, both in specifics and in general. And give no thought to pleasing man, when God is pleased; for by doing so, you prevent offending Him, for the love of the world is enmity with God. As that leads you to walk towards God in faithfulness, so it also leads you to walk with faithfulness towards man “with a conscience void of offence.” And so to that keep your mind and do not be hasty to know anything beyond what you have been shown, for by such desire Eve lost her paradise. But lie down in the will of God, and wait on His teaching so that He may be your head. By such you will find the way to peace and dwell in unity with all the faithful; and though you are hated by the world, yet in God is peace and well-being.

James Parnell

About ten years after this, Stephen Crisp was called to write a testimony to the character and ministry of James Parnell, which he did in a spirit that shows his still precious remembrance of Parnell as an instrument of God, by which his long wandering and weary soul had been turned into the Way, which led into an establishment in the Truth. After speaking of the great work by which the Lord with His own arm and power had created in those days, he goes on to say:

Babes have been His messengers, and children have been His ministers, who in their innocence have received the revelation of His Holy Spirit, by whom the deep things of His law and of his glorious gospel of life and salvation have been revealed. And among these babes, who came to receive the knowledge of the mysteries of the Kingdom of God, by the working of His divine power, was this noble child, James Parnell; who was a vessel of honor indeed and was mighty in the power and Spirit of Emanuel, breaking down and laying desolate many strong holds and towers of defense, in which the old deceiver had fortified himself with his children. Much might be spoken of this man, and a large testimony lives in my heart, to his blessed life, and to the power and wisdom that abounded in him."]

Here at the very first of my convincement, the enemy of my soul made trial to slay me after this manner: that seeing my wisdom and reason were overcome by the truth, I could not with this stand against it; therefore I received the truth, and held it in the same part with which I withstood it, and defended it with the same wisdom by which I resisted it, and so was yet a stranger to the cross that was to crucify me; and was at liberty in the conversant spirit, to lay out [use] my wits and parts for the truth. But I soon felt my sacrifice, (though I offered the best my earth would afford), was not accepted, but something else was still called for. A cry was in me which called to judgment, and the earth that had long covered her slain, began to be moved, but not yet removed out of its place, and great were the struggles of my thoughts, and a great desire kindled in me how I might comprehend the truth in my understanding, as I had done the doctrines and principles of other religions. But all my labor in this regard was to no purpose, for a death was determined upon that wisdom from the Lord. So I saw my labor in vain, my fishing could catch nothing all that night while I worked in the dark, and did not have the guidance of the light.

In this state I continued a month or two, but then a swift sword was drawn against that wisdom and comprehending mind, and a strong hand gave the stroke, and I was hewn down like a tall cedar, that at once comes down to the ground.

But then, oh the woe, misery and calamity that opened upon me! Yes, even the gates of hell and destruction stood open, and I saw myself nearly falling into it. My hope and faith and all fled from me. I had no prop left to rest upon. The tongue that was as a river, was now like a dry desert; the eye that would, or at least desired to see everything, was now so blind, that I could see nothing certainly, but my present undone and miserable state. Oh! then I cried out in the bitterness of any soul, what has all my profession profited me? I am poor and blind, and naked, who thought I had been rich and well adorned. Then saw I the well favored harlot stripped, and brought into remembrance before God; and her judgment had come, and I did not know how to escape the fire of the vengeance which broke forth. Oh, how doleful were my nights, and sorrowful were my days! My delights withered even in wife and children, and in all things, and the glory of the whole world passed away like a scroll that is burnt with fire, and I saw nothing left in the whole world to give me any comfort. My sun lost her light, and my moon was darkened, and the stars of my course were fallen, that I knew not how to direct my way, but was as one forsaken in a howling desert in the darkest night.

When I saw what God had done, (for I believed it was his doing), I was ready to cry, I am forsaken forever, and never was sorrow like mine, my wound is incurable, and my sickness none can heal. Alas! My tongue or pen cannot express the sorrows of those days in which I sat me down in silence, fear and astonishment, and was encompassed with sorrow and darkness. I knew none to make my moan unto. I heard of joy and salvation, but could scarcely think that I should ever be a partaker of it, I still lacking that living faith, which the apostle said, was of the operation of God, who raised up Jesus, the true seed, which seed I still felt groaning in me to be delivered from the burden of sin, and from the oppression of the carnal mind.

After long travail, strong cries, and many bitter tears and groans, I found a little hope springing in me, that the Lord in his own time would bring forth his seed, even his elect seed, the seed of his covenant, to rule in me. This was given me at a time when the sense of my own unworthiness had so overwhelmed me in sorrow and anguish, that I thought myself unworthy of any of the creatures; forasmuch as I was out of the covenant of God, and hereupon was tempted to deny myself of them. Then did the hope of the resurrection of the just spring in me, and I was taught to wait on God, and to eat and drink in fear and watchfulness, showing forth the Lord's death till he should come to be raised to live and reign in me.* Then I waited as one that had hope that God would be gracious to me; yet something in me wanted to have known the time how long it should be, but a faithful cry was in me, which called that to death.

*It was a Jewish custom to break bread and share a cup of wine after the supper. Paul relates Christ's words concerning the bread and wine thus: "This do you, as often as you drink it, in remembrance of me" and himself adds, "For as often as you do eat this bread and drink this cup, you do show forth the Lord's death until he comes." 1 Cor 11:24-27. Christ is telling us: as often as you break bread and share a cup of wine after a meal, to do this in remembrance of me, until He comes to you, (appears in you, is revealed in you, is seen within you).

Once I was weary of my thoughts in the meeting of God's people, I thought none was like me, and it was but in vain to sit there with such a wandering mind as mine was, which though I labored to stop it, yet I could not as I tried. At length, I thought to leave, and as I was going, the Lord thundered through me, saying, that which is weary must die. So I turned to my seat and waited in the belief of God, for the death of that part which was weary of the work of God, and grew more diligent in seeking death, that I might be baptized in death; and that I might know how to put off the old man with his deeds and words, and imaginations, his fashions and customs, his friendship and wisdom, and all that appertained to him, and the cross of Christ was laid upon me, and I bore it.

As I came willingly to take it [the cross] up, I found it to be to me, that thing which I had sought from my childhood, even the power of God; for by it, I was crucified to the world, and it to me, which nothing else could ever do. But oh, how glad was my soul when I had found the way to slay my soul's enemies. Oh, the secret joy that was in me in the midst of all my conflicts and combats I had this confidence, if I only take up the cross, I shall obtain victory, for that is the power of God through faith to salvation, and as I have found it so in some things, so I shall do in all in due time. Then the reproach of the gospel became joyous to me; though in those days it was very cruel and grievous to flesh and blood, yet I despised it, and that for the joy that was now set before me, of which I had some hope I should in time be made a partaker, if I abode faithful. It was my  great care night and day, to keep so low and out of the workings of my own will, that I might discern the mind of God, and do it, though in never so great a cross to my own.

Yet the enemy of my soul followed me close and very secretly, and taking notice how willing I was to obey the Lord, he strove to get up into the seat of God, and to move as an angel of light, to betray me, and to lead me into something that was like the service of God. Many sore conflicts did I meet withal before I us able in all things to distinguish between the workings of the true spirit and power, from that which was but transformed. But forasmuch as I had now surely tasted of the love and goodness of God, I trusted in him, and committed the keeping of my soul unto him in singleness of heart. Manifold and daily were his deliverances made known to me, beyond all recount or remembrance of man, for which, oh my soul, praise you the Lord for ever, who cared for you in your infancy, and kept you in the days of your distress.

The more I came to feel and perceive the love of God, and his goodness to flow forth upon me, the more was I humbled and bowed in my mind to serve him, and to serve the least of his people among whom I walked. As the word of wisdom began to spring in me, and the knowledge of God grew, so I became as a counselor of them that were tempted in like manner as I had been, yet was kept so low that I waited to receive counsel daily from God, and from those who were over me in the Lord, and were in Christ before me, against whom I never rebelled, nor was stubborn. But the more I was kept in subjection myself, the more subject were evil spirits made to me, and the more I was enabled to help the weak and feeble ones; so the eyes of many came to be upon me, as one with whom counsel and understanding, in some measure were.

The church of God in those days increased, and my care daily increased, and the weight of things relating both to the outward and inward condition of poor Friends came upon me, and being called of God and his people to take the care of the poor, and to relieve their necessities as I did see occasion, I did it faithfully for several years, with diligence and much tenderness, exhorting and reproving any that were slothful, and encouraging them that were diligent, putting a difference according to the wisdom given me of God, and still minding my own state and condition, and seeking the honor that comes from God only. A cry was in me to keep on my spiritual amour, for all enemies were not yet put under my feet, so I kept my watch, not knowing well where the enemy might appear, but after awhile I found his appearance once more to be very sharp, and that upon this occasion.

About the year 1659, I often felt the aboundings of the love of God in my heart, and a cry to stand given up to his will, which I thought I was, not knowing or foreseeing what the Lord was intending to do with me. But his eye saw further than mine. His love and tenderness, and bowels of compassion wrought so in me, that it extended even to all men on the whole face of the earth, so that I cried in spirit, oh that all men knew you and your goodness! And upon a time, as I was waiting upon the Lord, his word arose in me, and commanded me to forsake and part with my dear wife and children, father and mother, and to go and bear witness to his name in Scotland, to that high professing nation. But when that came to pass I found all enemies were not slain indeed; for the strivings, struggles, reasonings and disputes against the command of God, that I then met with, cannot be told or numbered. Oh! how I would have pleaded my own inability, the care of my family, my service in that particular meeting, and many more things, and all that I might have been excused from this one thing which was come upon me, that I thought not of or looked not for.

After many reasonings, days and weeks by myself, I thought it best to speak of it to some of the faithful elders and ministers of the everlasting gospel; not knowing but they might discourage me, and something there was that hoped it, but contrarily they encouraged me, and laid it upon me to be faithful. Then I gave up, and informed my dear wife regarding the Lord’s directive, which began me a new exercise, the enemy working in her strongly to stop me. But in much patience was I kept, and in quietness, and went and visited Friends' meetings about Essex, and port of Suffolk, chiefly to see them, and to take my leave of them. In some meetings the Lord would open my mouth in a few words to the refreshing of Friends, but I rather chose silence, when I might so.

The winter drew near, and something would have deferred [my journey] till next summer. But the Lord showed me it must not be my time, but his time. Then I would have gone by sea, but the Lord withstood me, and showed me, it must not be my way, but his way; and if I would be obedient he would be with me, and prosper my journey, otherwise his hand would strike me. So I gave up all, and with pretty much cheerfulness at last I obeyed, and about the end of the seventh month went forth, and visited the churches of Christ.

As I went along in Lincolnshire and Yorkshire, I quickly perceived the Lord was with me more than at other times, and my journey became joyful, and the more, in that though I was but weak, poor and low, yet God gave me acceptance among the elders of his people, and in every place my testimony was owned, and many were convinced of the everlasting truth. Then I marveled, and said, 'Lord, the glory alone belongs to you, for you have wrought wonders for your name's sake, and for your holy seed's sake.'

I got into Scotland in the ninth month, that year, and traveled to and fro that winter on foot with cheerfulness. Many hardships and difficulties attended me, which I decline to mention, it being the time of the movement of the English and Scottish armies, upon which came the revolution of government, and the bringing back King Charles the Second into England. About the eleventh or twelfth month I returned and traveled into the west to Westmoreland, part of Lancashire, and so to the southward, and in about five or six months time, was by the good hand of God brought home to my wife and children, and relatives; in all my journey being sweetly accompanied with the presence of the Lord, and his power often filled my earthen vessel and made my cup to overflow: praises forever be to his name, said my soul.

In all my journey I lacked not anything that was good for me, but as it was my care in singleness to serve the Lord, so was the tender care of the Lord over me, and he supplied me with whatever was needful in my journey, yet all along a secret hope lived in me, that when the present journey should be accomplished, I should be freed from this service, and have liberty to return to my calling and family, but contrarily it proved. For when I had been at home a few days, it lay upon me to go up to London, to visit the brethren and church of God there. I went in great fear and dread of God into that city; and having continued there a few days, departed northward again at the command of the Lord, and found my way prosperous wherever I went; and great encouragement did I daily receive from the Lord, who blessed my labor of love, that besides the peace and joy I felt in myself, I saw the effect of my labor and travail of my soul in many places, made manifest by many being turned from darkness to light, and from serving the devil's power unto the power of God. But still trials attended me and a prison became my portion, nearly two hundred miles from home, and great and grievous threats were breathed out against me, and the same spirit which wrought the persecutors, both in their cruelty and subtlety, strove to work in me also.

But I cried to the Lord, and he helped me, and my faith failed me not, but I fulfilled my service and testimony; and at length was delivered, and several thousands more, by a public proclamation from the king. I then returned to my own house, after about eight months' absence, and my heart was set to serve the Lord, who had been good unto me. Yet this hope of being freed from this kind of service, lived long in me, for I found the work every day more weighty than other, many false spirits rising up and transforming themselves into the likeness of truth, yet were enemies to the life of truth, which were the worst enemies of all. I saw that Zion's enemy, that could no other way prevail, was now trying if by a false pretence of holiness and obedience, he could deceive and beguile the simple. But I cried to God to give me a discerning heart, and an understanding to comprehend the snare of the enemy, and that I might be a help to the weak, and he did so.

I saw the foundation struck at by the enemy, and I grew zealous for the Lord and his house, and testified freely against the secret deceits of the enemy; but, this occasioned me yet more exercise and sorrow too; many who saw not the depths of the workings of Satan, judging my zeal and fervency against that contradictory spirit to be needless. But in meekness and patience, the Lord kept me out of the warring and striving mind, for I dared not strike them whom I knew to be my fellow servants, but them that pretended to be so, and yet served and promoted another interest. Them I often wounded with the weapon God had given, and those who came to love the judgment, were healed, but many perished in their rebellion and stubbornness. The Lord arose and blasted the work of the enemy, and opened the eyes of many that were darkened, and they came to see the end of what had been the troubler of Israel, and peace, unity and true love were restored in all our borders. Then was my joy full, and my cup did overflow with praises and thankfulness to God, who had had regard for his heritage and people, and had delivered them from the devices of the wicked one.

My soul grew daily in love with Zion, and there was nothing in all the world so desirable to me as the prosperity of the gospel, and the spreading and publishing his name and truth through the earth. This love constrained me to travel with great diligence from country to country, to make known what God had done for my soul, and to publish the day of the Lord; yet, the day of redemption in which the captivity of the spiritual Israel should be brought back, which did prove glad tidings to many, who received the report and believed it. They came to behold the revelation of the holy powerful arm of God, to their souls satisfaction. In most parts of England where I traveled, found a daily adding to the church, such as are like to be saved; and hereupon my joy increased, and I began to be more freely given up to the work and service of God, and to the ministry of the gospel.

About the year 1663, I was moved to cross the seas, and to visit the seed of God in the Low Countries,* which I did with cheerfulness; and though in an unknown land and with all unknown speech, yet by an interpreter sometimes, and sometimes in my own tongue, I declared the truth to the refreshing of many, and to the bringing back some from error; and having accomplished that visit, I returned in peace to England. After awhile, being required of God, I again went down into the north country, and laboring in the word and doctrine with great diligence and fervency, along near the seacoast, and so down to Newcastle, and something beyond. Being led by the Spirit, I came back again another way more eastward through the land, and found all the way the plant of God's renown flourishing and growing, meetings enlarged, and the hearts of Friends enlarged in love to me and mine to them.

*The Low Countries consisted of what is today the Netherlands, Belgium, Luxembourg and parts of France and Germany.

Being returned, a great weight came upon me concerning the great city of London, greater than ever before. I went up full of might and power, and did daily, as the Lord opened my mouth and ordered me, warn them of the abominations and wickedness that ran down among them like a stream, and declared the judgments of God at hand upon them, for their great wickedness, which followed speedily both by war and fire, and many more calamities. After this, about 1667, it was required of me again to go into Holland, and my dear companion, Josiah Coale, went with me; and we traveled to and fro, and visited the churches about three months and returned.

I went again into the north of England, my heart being abundantly drawn out towards the noble seed of God in those parts, and my love and tenderness of heart towards them, made all travel and labor, and perils easy. Because I still saw the tender plants of my heavenly Father in a thriving and growing way or condition, I felt the virtue of life daily springing in me, which was given me to water the heritage and garden of God with. As soon as I was clear, I returned, having the care of the church of God coming upon me more and more still, which constrained me to diligence, and to be as swift as I might be, so that I might be as serviceable as possible in my generation, and might keep myself clear of the blood of all men, which I found to be no easy or slight work.

Being safely returned, and finding the presence and power of the Lord, yet leading me to and fro from country to country, to which I was obedient, not of constraint now, but of a willing mind; counting his service a freedom, feeling myself freed from the cares of this life, having now learned to cast all my care upon him. After a year or two years travel thus in England, the Lord laid yet more of the weight and care of the affairs of his people in the Low Countries upon me, and I found a drawing towards them; and in the year 1669, I went over and visited the meetings, obtained many new meetings, and they set up a men's meeting among them, to see to the good ordering and governing of the affairs relating to Truth and Friends.

This time did it please the Lord to open my understanding abundantly, that I began to declare in their own tongue the things that God had committed unto me to minister; and several received the everlasting gospel, and were brought to feel the power of God, by which they are saved from the world, and the polluted ways in it. Traveling in those provinces of Holland, Friesland, and Groningen, etc., I was moved to pass into Germany, to which I gave up in the fourth month that same year; and by the way met with many perils and dangers, by reason of the horrible darkness, popery, cruelty and superstitions of those lands and dominions through which I traveled. Sometimes it was as if my life were in my hands, to offer up for my testimony; but the Lord preserved me, and brought me upon the fourteenth day of that month to Krisheim near Worms, where I found several who had received the everlasting Truth, and had stood in a testimony for God about ten years, in great sufferings and tribulations, who received me as a servant or God; and my testimony was as a dew upon the tender grass unto them. I had five good meetings among them, and many heard the Truth, and several were reached and convinced, and Friends established in the faith.

It was also just in an hour of temptation and time of trial among them, that the Lord had cast me there; for the prince of that land, called the palsgrave, had imposed a fine upon them for their meetings, to wit, four rix dollars* the year for each family, which they, for conscience sake, not paying, he sent an order to take the value in goods. Whereupon his unreasonable executioners came and took away triple the value, but they suffered the spoiling of their goods with great joy and gladness, and counted it a happiness that they were counted worthy to suffer for his name's sake, who had called them to the knowledge of his blessed Truth, and to bear a testimony in that dark desert, to the light of the Lord Jesus.

* a rix dollar was a coin of Bremen, Germany, which had a value of 78.75 cents

I went to Heidelberg to the prince of that land, and had a good opportunity with him, and laid before him the danger of his proceeding on in persecution. He heard me with a great deal of friendliness, and discoursed things at large with me, and in several things promised it should be better, as it did also after come to pass. Having finished that service in Germany, I returned, and being come into the Low Country again, I went to Groningen, where several had believed in the name of Jesus, the light of the world, whom when I had visited in the power of God, and strengthened in the faith, I left, and returned through Friesland to Amsterdam, where, by reason of my now speaking in their own language, meetings grew exceedingly great, and many strangers came flocking in, and a great openness I found in the country.

Being necessitated of the Lord to come for England, I left them to the Word of the grace which they had received of God, which was able to keep them; and came over into England in the latter end of the year, and went towards London, in order to visit the churches in the western parts of England, whose faces in the outward, I had never seen, though long desired it. Passing from London, I went through Berkshire and Wiltshire, having had many precious meetings with the Lord's people. I came to Bristol, where I found a people, among whom my soul was greatly refreshed. I stayed with them about a week or nine days, and in a true sense of the Eternal Power, in which the true fellowship always stood, we took leave one of another.

I traveled that winter with my companion in the gospel, Samuel Cater, through Somersetshire, Devonshire, and Cornwall, to the Lands-end of England, visiting the churches in those parts to our mutual comfort. I returned by Plymouth, visiting the south seacoast even unto Portsmouth, then coming through Hampshire and Surrey, came to London, and so to Colchester again, to the gladdening the hearts of God's heritage in that place, many of whom have with me many a time rejoiced and given thanks to him who lives and reigns forever, for my preservation through all perils and dangers, and the multitudes of deliverances of which I was daily made partaker.

Being moved of the Lord, I appointed a meeting at a place called Chelmandiston, where several had received the truth and testimony of God through me his servant. There a priest, who two years before betrayed me to the ruler, and got me into prison; now procured a warrant to have me cast into prison, and so I was in Ipswich jail the First month, 1670. I was committed to jail for being at a conventicle,* (so called), upon the statute of the 14th of king Charles, which said, "If a person is convicted of a conventicle, he shall pay a sum of money not exceeding five pounds, or lie in prison some time, not exceeding three months;" and the judge of assizes, R. Rainsford in his haste and passion, not regarding the law, but his own will, committed me to lie in jail until I would pay five pounds; and afterward being convinced of his error, he wrote an order for my release at three months end.

*Conventicles were seditious meetings of a riotous nature, plotting insurrection against the government, legislated to prevent supporters of the Pope who refused to acknowledge government authority, but who rather believed all governments should be subject to the Pope — those known as Popish recusants.

I being released, was drawn forth in the love of God, again to cross the seas about the fifth month, 1670, and went to Holland to visit the remnant there that had believed, and to strengthen their faith, and for some weeks preached the gospel in several cities unto the inhabitants and strangers, who came in great numbers often to meetings, hearing there was one that spoke in their own language. Many were reached, and some overcome by the power of Truth; and the hand of the Lord was with me in a blessed manner, to the refreshing my soul and filling my vessel, and the overflowing of my cup made many glad.

Then about the seventh month, it arose in me to travel eastward, and to visit those dismal dark countries in the lower parts of Germany, and the borders of Denmark and Sweden, where the Lutheran religion bears sway, and darkness and wickedness in the strength of it there. Oh! the weight and burden I felt many times, as I traveled through their towns and cities, where it might well be said, none did good, none considered their ways, and none thought upon the name of the Lord as they ought to do; but all manner of wickedness abounded. I and my companion, Peter Hendricks, were as signs and wonders, because our manner and conduct, our words and discourses carried nothing but judgment to them, and sometimes we gave them books and papers of Friends, and left them with them. Though the rage of many kindled against us, yet the Lord made way for us, and we had a safe and prosperous voyage, and came to Hamburg, and had a meeting upon a first-day with those there that were convinced. Then we went down into the dukedom of Holstein, belonging to the kingdom of Denmark; and having traveled two days journey, about seventy English miles from Hamburg, we came to Frederickstadt, where we found the brethren met together to wait upon the Lord, upon the fourth-day of the week, who received us joyfully. We sat down and were refreshed in the fellowship of that blessed gospel which is ordained for a blessing to all nations, tongues, and kindreds, who believe and obey it. After that we announced a meeting publicly in the city, to be on the sixth-day, unto which many of the city came, particularly the chief magistrate and the messenger or sergeant of the city; and the power of God was much manifest among us, and much brokenness there was among the people, and they received the doctrine of Truth with much love and tenderness.

On the first-day of the week, in the morning, we had a meeting again with the brethren and those who were convinced, and a great openness was among us from the Lord; and in the afternoon we had another public meeting, at which there were about a hundred people, and everyone's mouth was stopped; and though liberty was given for any objections, none was made.

These things troubled the minds of some professors and teachers, who had enmity in their hearts against the Truth, so that two of them came towards evening and desired to have a dispute with me, which being granted, about forty or fifty persons came in to hear. For an hour or two, we spoke together, and the power of God was over them, and they were divided between themselves, which when the most moderate saw, he went away, and the other, named Eppinghooft, stayed until he showed his folly to most of them who were in the room, the particulars of which are too many to relate here. So Truth stood over them, and the city was in a tender, cool, and loving frame, and several were added the church, and to the faith which saves. The city has remained in such a frame ever since, and has been visited by several brethren, Thomas Green and William Penn, who have had good meetings among them to their mutual refreshment.

On the second-day of the week, we met together early in the morning, and committed each other to God, with prayer and supplication; and they accompanied us to the Jider [river], which runs by the city, and there we parted in that love which never changes, and set our faces again towards Hamburg, where we arrived safely the next day. After we had visited Friends there, we took a boat and came over the Elbe, and by wagon came to Bremen, where we left several books. We passed back to Oldenburg, and so to Embden. Since it was the first-day of the week, it lay upon me to go to an assembly of the ministers, (a kind of Baptists), where after one Hert Jansen had preached, and the prayer time was over, (for they speak no words in prayer, but all kneel down and are silent, everyone praying in his own mind as seems good to him), I say, after that, I stood up and spoke in the Dutch tongue about half an hour, exhorting them to come to God's witness, that they might feel judgment set up in them, to cleanse them, and to prepare them for the Lord, etc.

After this the preacher stood up again and vindicated and maintained by scripture what I had said, exhorting them to receive my exhortation. The same evening several people came together at the house of a poor maid named Remelkie, who had neither hands nor feet, a devout woman who sought after the way of God, and received us gladly to her house. I was moved to declare the truth of God among them; and after that we had some words by way of dispute and parted lovingly.

The next day several of them came again to us and kept us company; and about mid-day we parted very friendly, and I with my companion took shipping for Delfe-Siele, and so came to Groningen, and had a meeting with Friends to our mutual refreshment. From there we went to Lea Warden, where the Friesland lords had a law to put any Quakers in prison for five years, who should dare to come into their province or Friesland, by which law they had taken three Friends of Amsterdam and had put them in prison. They made an order that no Quakers were allowed to visit them. When I understood this, the zeal and love of God sprung up in my heart, and set me over them and their wicked law, and I took a pen and wrote to their lord president, and told them they had done worse than heathens; and since they had made a law to imprison all Quakers, there was I and two more with me, who had come to visit the prisoners, and desired liberty so to do; for we feared God more than them and their law, and were come to fulfill our Christian duty to our brethren, whom they had so unjustly cast into prison. The president carried the letter to the council, but the Lord limited them, and they let it pass by and did not lay hands on us. We appointed a meeting in the city, and having tarried there several days, we came to Workum, and took shipping for Amsterdam, and came there on the first-day morning, about the beginning of the ninth month.

Returning to Holland, we had many precious meetings together with Friends in several cities, Alkmaer, Harlem, Rotterdam, etc. A young man from Switzerland heard that his  brother in Holland had turned Quaker and in his zeal came down, thinking to turn him. When he heard the Truth declared in the meetings of the first and second days, the Truth prevailed upon him. He owned it and became obedient to the cross, the first week he was there. This was to the great comfort of Friends, and most of all, his brother.

Having traveled through the meetings and visited Friends, in the tenth month I committed them to the Lord and to the Word of his grace, and returned again to England. There I went around visiting the churches in London and in several parts of the nation for three or four months. At this time, I understood that several exalted spirits had risen up, among the believers in Friesland, who began to set forth a strange doctrine among Friends, and sought to unsettle the minds of them that had newly received the faith among them. They had begun to seduce them from their meetings, and to wait upon, and to mind strange notions and imaginations, which has been the ruin of many in former ages, who had not grown to be able to discern.

So the zeal of God moved in me against that spirit, and the love to the tender seed drew me again over the seas, which was of great service to Friends and the Truth. I labored greatly to inform the minds of Friends, of the depths of that ranting spirit, and where it would lead and where it would center, having had long experience with the same spirit in England. The [Lord's] power arose among Friends, and they began to note those who were disorderly and unruly, and to call them to an account. They took great labor and pains with them to regain and recover them out of the snare of the devil, making many journeys to visit them, which proved effective with many being helped and brought back. However, some were hardened and waxed worse and worse, and turned against the power of God into enmity and opposition against Friends; so that a necessity was for Friends to clear themselves and the Truth of them and their evil works; and all the more, because we saw that the mind in which they were so vainly puffed up was fleshly as afterward appeared. Friends called them to their general men's meeting, but they refused to come. So Friends then journeyed to them time after time, to warn them, and to exhort them to turn again to the Truth which they had fallen from; but when no counsel would take place with several of them, Friends put out a paper against them for the clearing of the Truth.

After these proceedings I came to England again in the fourth month, 1671, and traveled through several counties, being greatly rejoiced to see the peace, unity and courage, that were among the people of God after the hard persecution that had been among them. Passing up to London, and back again to Colchester, where having a sore sickness near unto death in appearance, it came upon me to go into the north country to visit the churches in Yorkshire and Bisboprick, etc., where I had not been for three or four years, by reason of my being much beyond the seas. The love of the Lord abounded in my heart unto those dear Friends northward; and I was pressed in spirit until I had cleared myself of all things that lay upon me in my own country. And upon the 31st of the eighth month, took my journey forward. Going through the Isle of Ely, I found dear Samuel Cater, who was pressed in spirit to visit Friends in Scotland, and so became my companion as far as Newcastle.

We traveled through several places, to the refreshment of ourselves and many more; and the Lord delivered us out of the hands of the ungodly informers, who were then very grievious throughout the nation because the new law which was made to fine us for speaking in meetings, twenty pounds the first time, and forty pounds each time after. This law made them greedy in all parts, but in all places, through the wisdom and power of God they were frustrated. Though the winter was very sharp, and my body now through much affliction very weak, yet was I marvelously supported through that journey. Having parted with my honest companion at Newcastle, I turned westward and came southward another way than I went. I came to London again, where having visited Friends, I returned to my outward habitation again in Colchester, to the joy of my poor wife and Friends, who had longings for my return as I had also longed to see again their faces, which desires the Lord to our comfort answered, about the twelfth month, 1671.

Having continued visiting Friends in the area, the early part of the year; about midsummer I took shipping for the Low Countries again, to visit the flock of God. There I labored and traveled about three months in Holland and Friesland, in the time of that great consternation and confusion that was upon them, by reason of the great and sudden progress the king of France made upon the United Provinces. However, the foundations of their pomp, power and glory were then shaken and ready to be overturned. Yet I saw the foundation of Satan's kingdom stand very fast among them. Instead of the people turning to the Lord by unfeigned repentance, they grew worse and worse and debauched themselves more than ordinary by drinking, gaming and sporting. A burden regarding this came upon me, and I was made to cry out against them in the power of the Most High, and warn them to repent, and put away every man the evil of his doings. I wrote down the counsel of the Lord as it was manifest in me, showing them the cause of their misery, and where the remedy must be. I had it printed and made public to those countries, and many copies were given to the chief rulers and commanders. So I cleared my conscience in the sight of God concerning those nations or that time, and left them, returning for England about the eighth month, 1672.

Having been some time at my own home, and having visited Friends in many countries, I went to London, and parts adjacent, preaching the everlasting gospel, and witnessing the grace of God, in Jesus Christ, which shined forth to gather the elect seed out of the house of bondage and darkness. The Lord was with me daily to the rejoicing of thousands, and to my daily encouragement; for by his mighty power many strong oaks were bowed, and many subtle foxes prevented of their prey, and many wandering sheep brought home, who had long desired to find the fold of rest, whose souls will ever live with my soul in his covenant to praise him world without end.

Having spent about six months in this manner, I found it upon me from the Lord again, to pass over the sea, and to visit several places where Truth had been little or not at all sounded; and in particular, that hard-hearted city of Embden in East Friesland. Here one John William Hasbert, a doctor of medicine, received me with great cheerfulness. I had a meeting in his house upon the first-day of the week, about the latter end of the first month, 1673, where many people of many persuasions did hear the Truth declared in great plainness and simplicity. After some time, those who were convinced were drawn in love to God to assemble together, to worship God in spirit and in truth, and in the silence away from that fleshly wisdom that can speak when it pleases, and say what it pleases. At the first, about ten persons in Hashert's house sat down to wait upon the Lord, and when this was reported about the city, the wicked one stirred up the priests and rulers against them, and they stirred up the rude and ignorant people to assault them, mock, reproach and revile them, and the rulers fell quickly to fining, imprisoning, threatening and banishing those weak and tender plants in almost an unheard of manner. [After] banishing some, sixteen or twenty times, spoiling all they had, save their clothes, at last they fell upon them also; taking away their coats, hats, breeches, gloves, aprons, etc., and driving them through the streets almost naked aboard the ships that were to carry them away. All this and much more by the mighty power of the Lord, did these innocent, harmless lambs bear with great patience and quietness, and were not dismayed at all at these cruelties; for the Lord had regard to his name and to their innocent cry, and supported them, and does support them, and they have found it true, that those who wait upon the Lord have renewed their strength, blessed be the Lord for ever.

Returning from Holland into Friesland, I continued about three or four months, and published the glad tidings of salvation in their own tongue to all that had an ear to hear. About the same time, various great pillars both as to state and religion were shaken, and some of those who had been in great places in government, were convinced, and their understandings were opened concerning the way of Truth, and began to struggle and contend for it in that wisdom that was from beneath. These I faithfully warned and counseled in the love of God, not to seek to comprehend the Truth, but to wait in lowliness to be comprehended by it, and gathered into the precious life thereof. But oh! the cross, the offence of the cross, they could not bear with, but sought many ways to satisfy themselves with owning the doctrine and words of Truth, and loving Friends who walked in them; but did not come down to the simplicity of the gospel (except for one of them), nor to be separated from the world, nor from those things in which the world's fellowship stands, though they were brought to confess the way of Truth, and to cry out for the load that lay upon the soul. However the sound of their convincement did tend to the advantage of the gospel, and many came to meetings, and they of the most honorable; and some were convinced of several ranks, qualities and persuasions, especially in Rotterdam, where meetings then grew very large, and Truth came to have a good esteem in the hearts of many who had hated it and us without a cause.

After I had spent three or four months in those parts, and found myself clear, I returned to England again to the general meeting in the fourth month, and traveled with great diligence through divers counties, and went again to Bristol and visited the churches in many parts of England to my and their great refreshment.

The Lord was with me, and gave me utterance and wisdom as I stood in need, for he kept me poor in spirit and low in mind, and I knew that my dependence was upon him alone, who knew well how to order both me and my serevice; and he gave me judgment to rebuke disputers, and to stop the mouths of them that opposed themselves.

So I continued till about the fourth month, 1675, at which time I understood the former openness continued in the Low Countries; and I was drawn in the love of God again to go over there to visit them, and to behold their order, which I did to my great comfort, and found the noble plant flourishing, and a living testimony opened and raised up in many of them who had believed; and they spoke of the goodness of God in their congregations, warning all men that they might turn to the Lord by unfeigned repentance, and wait to see his salvation.

Hearing of the great sufferings Friends at Embden, I went there to visit them, and hearing of a law they had published, of twenty-five pounds fine for everyone that should harbor a Friend in his or their house; I desired to see it, and took it and wrote a book to the hard-hearted rulers and priests, and answered their wicked mandate with sharp and sound judgment, and caused it to be delivered among them. The power came over them, and they laid not hands on me, nor did me any harm, though I was publicly in their city two days, and known by many of them; after which their fury abated, and Friends began to have some more freedom than formerly.

About the eighth month, 1676, having traveled through the provinces, and visited many places and cities, I returned in the will of God to my own home; finding my body much decayed and disabled from travel and labor more than formerly; yet satisfied in the will of God who laid no more upon me, than he gave me ability to perform; and as he has always been abundant in goodness to me, so he is to this day, blessed be his name for ever. This I can say, my delight is to do his will, and my joy is that he has counted me worthy to bear his holy name and testimony among the sons and daughters of men. Oh! that all men would fear the Lord, and walk in the way of his righteousness, that they might come to have the evidence and testimony of his goodness in themselves. I passed that winter in visiting the churches in Essex and Suffolk, and sometimes at London, where it pleased the Lord to appear with me for his name and tender seed's sake, to the convincement of several, and strengthening of many; glory be to him alone forever. The winter being over, I felt drawings to pass again over sea, finding a particular care and charge laid upon me concerning those parts, in which the Lord had given me great encouragement, and I saw I had not labored in vain; praises be to his name.

About the first month, 1677, I took shipping for Holland, where I found Friends very well, and in good order; and their men and women's meetings had become a delight to them, as having not only enjoyed the Lord's presence in them, but had also seen the great benefit that had come thereby, and the ease they had of the weights that had formerly lain upon them. Having several times visited their meetings in Holland, I went over into Friesland, to Harlingen, where many Friends of that country met me upon a first-day; and we had two precious and large meetings and many professors came to hear, who had nothing to say against the testimony of Truth. Having seen Friends there, and finding myself unable for long journeys, I returned for Holland, and having stayed there with great joy and comfort in seeing truth and prosperity, about the latter end of the third month I came back for England, and passed for London, where was most of that summer and in the parts adjacent.

Then the Lord put it into my heart again to visit the meetings round about Colchester, where I lived, which with much pain and trouble of body, though with much joy in spirit, I accomplished, and found Friends in most places well. Where I found the subtle, crafty serpent seeking to scatter and to divide God's heritage; I reproved it with great plainness and confidence in the Lord, who had showed me the mystery of that iniquity; and how the enemy of Truth sought to cover himself with Truth's words, and under pretence of leaving all to the power, would usher in a spirit of liberty to lay waste the blessed testimony of God, and scatter the people out of the good order into which the gospel, the power of God, had brought them.

In the service of my God, after this manner, I continued in and about home most of that winter, waiting upon the Lord to be led and guided in my service and testimony according to his will; for I found that although through long experience, my senses were exercised in the service of God and the churches; yet I had nothing to trust to, as a guide or leader, how and after what manner to minister in the church of Christ, but the same that led me in the beginning, even the immediate separation of the power that brings forth in the will of God all things suitable to their season, that the glory might be to the power, and the praises to him who gives it, forever and forever more.

The winter being over, the Lord renewed my strength, and having further service for me to do, gave ability. About the first month, 1678, I found some powerful drawings in the love or God to go down once more into Yorkshire, where I had much service for the Lord, but had not been there for about six or seven years. So I went to Hull, and visited the churches about Holderness and Hull, and Beverly, Malton, and York; in all which places I saw the glory of the temple of my God shine forth in great splendor, notwithstanding all the rage of the adversary. I had a precious service in every place, and the hearts of many were opened, and the souls of many dear friends were truly refreshed, and the bread of life was plentiful among us to our mutual joy and rejoicing in this journey. My soul was greatly comforted to see so many of the ancients, and honorable men and women abiding in their places, and growing up in the house of God as fellow-helpers in the gospel with us. After about seven weeks tarrying in those parts, I committed them to the grace of God, and returned for London to the yearly meeting, where having tarried a week or two, I returned and put things in order in my own house. After this I again crossed the seas, and went to labor in his little vineyard there to my great refreshment; and going over about the fourth month 1678, continued there till about September the same year, in which time the Lord laid upon me to go up southward to divers cities on the Rhine, where several had received a mere notion of the Truth in a talkative mind, but had not come to a sense of the cross and dying for Christ Jesus, nor to a separation from after the foolish and vain customs and salutations that are in the world. I spoke with several of this sort of people at Cleeves and Wesell. At the latter place I had a meeting upon a first day, which was about the harvest time there, where several heard Truth declared in the plainness and simplicity of the gospel, and a love was begotten them. But oh! the cross, the cross! that was and is very hard to that mind that would willingly inherit both kingdoms! Great struggling there was by many of them to argue themselves into liberty, to abide in the customs of the world, while attempting to walk in and obey the light of the Lord Jesus also. But in vain was all that labor, and ever will be, for the disciple must be as his master; and he sought not nor received honor from men. Having answered the witness of God in them, I was not studious how to feed their various inquiring minds concerning things beyond their states and conditions, but parted with them in the love of God and true breathings to the Lord, for the bringing forth in the Lord's own time what he had begotten; and so committed them to the grace of God, and returned into Holland, where it pleased the Lord to visit me with sickness for several weeks.

Finding myself clear of all those parts for the present, I caused a boat to be prepared and brought to the door of my lodging, and I lay down in it, being very weak, and so was conveyed to Rotterdam, where my strength was so much renewed, that I went into their meeting on the first-day, and for about half an hour declared the Truth of the gospel among them, exhorting to a steadfast abiding therein unto the end. Shortly after, I got into the packet boat for England, and so to my own house, still remaining very weak, and freely given up in the will of God, that if my service were ended, I might lay down my head in the will of God in my own habitation after all my trials and travels.

But the Lord was pleased to restore me, so that I was able to ride and visit the meetings about home, and also got twice to London in that winter; where my joy was to behold the brethren that live in the unity of that power that shall bruise Satan and his work under foot, and lay waste his kingdom. So having visited some of the assemblies of the Lord's people in Hertfordshire and other places, and cleared myself of what lay upon me in the city, I returned to my place in the will of God, remaining as a servant waiting to be ordered, and as child waiting to be fed of him who is the Father and fountain of all my mercies, blessings and deliverances, to whom be the glory for evermore.

The next summer finding no necessity lying upon me as formerly, I went not over sea, but after the general meeting was over; it lay upon me to visit Friends again at Bristol and the area, being at that time under a deep sense of some great exercise that the church of God was in, by reason of some who under a pretence of exalting the power, sought to make void the wholesome order and government which the pure power had led us into, crying down formality and men's orders, etc. When I came there, I found that this licentious spirit had hurt many, and grieved many more; and a weight came upon me. I labored in the power of the gift that the Father had bestowed upon me, in meekness and patience, dealing with every one in sincerity, laboring to show them that were concerned, whither the tendency of that work would reach, even to the throwing down of the hedge that God had built about his heritage, and laying waste the work of the power under pretence of crying up the power itself; and by crying down men's orders, would draw from the gospel order, and from the blessed fellowship that was in it. And it pleased the Lord to give me an open door among them, and many were tender, and became more watchful; though others in the meanwhile, made but an ill use of all the tender dealings in the love of God, and sought thereby to strengthen themselves.

After about twenty days I returned, and came to London; and towards winter, I returned homeward, where I continued in the service of God, having my blessed reward with me, which no reflections of the adversary could take from me, and was exercised according to my ability, in visiting the assemblies of the Lord's people in Essex and Suffolk, where it lay upon me; and in helping and assisting the Lord's people according to my ability, both in their spiritual and temporal concerns, as the Lord God of my life gave me an understanding. For I gave up the ordering of my spirit unto him, and he opened me in many things relating to the affairs of this world, that I might be as a staff to the weak in those things, and might stand by the widow and fatherless, and plead the right of the poor. In all which I sought neither honor nor profit, but did all things freely, as I received of God, and he whom I served was my reward, so that I lacked nothing. Therefore, who would not praise the Lord, and who would not trust in his name?

When the winter was over, I went again to London, and into Hertfordshire and places that way, visiting the flock of God, and stayed till our general meeting was over, and then found drawings to visit the little remnant beyond the seas, in Holland and Friesland, and continued among them, and in those parts, about three months. In which time it came upon me in the great love of God, to visit a little innocent remnant that had believed in the Lord Jesus Christ, and professed his name in Crevelt, in the land of Meurs, who for their testimony had suffered many grievous things and been several times banished from house and home, and made to wander with wife and children to seek harbor or shelter in strange cities and places. These I found now returned to their dwellings, and was joyfully received by them, and much refreshed in them, beholding their faith and courage, and their steadfastness in the testimony they had to bear for the Lord. I tarried with them about three days, and had several precious public meetings in the city, and sounded the day of the Lord's tender visitation in the ears of many of the inhabitants, who generally behaved themselves with great sobriety and moderation, neither mocking nor scoffing, nor evilly entreating us; which is rare to find a people so moderate in those parts, which is in the borders of the dark Roman Catholic religion, and as it were intermixed with it. But I speak it to their praise, no man evilly entreated me, and the Lord's power was over all, for which we blessed and praised his name. Having comforted and strengthened them that had believed, I committed them to the grace of God, and left them, and returned again to Holland another way, through the Spanish Netherlands; where I saw great abominations and idolatry, and worshipping and praying to images, etc., which grieved my soul; and I could not but declare against it in several places, as the Lord made way. Having come back to Holland, I soon made way for my return home and cleared myself of the meetings in Holland, and took shipping for England, and got home on the 11th of September, 1680.

Soon after it pleased God to visit me with a sharp fever, which brought me in appearance near to the grave; in which his presence was with me, and supported me, and refreshed my soul many a time, so that death was not terrible to me; but I found myself quietly given up in the will of God, whether to live or die, I was contented. But after about ten days the fever was abated, and I perceived that my days would be yet added to; in which I was well satisfied, having a constant resolution fixed in my soul, that whether my days be few or many, to spend them in the service of God and his dear people, who are to me, as my mother, my brother, and my sister, yes, as my own children, finding a natural love in my heart to all my Father's children, and a true love to the brotherhood. And my God has put it far from me to despise the case of the poor, or to respect the rich in judgment, but according to the gift and understanding given me, I have walked with a straight foot in the gospel; the honor of all, with the praise of all, which belongs alone to him who has wrought it; yes, his own work praises him, and shall praise him who is worthy, both now and forevermore.

After it pleased God to restore me to a measure of health and ability, I spent the following winter in visiting the meetings about Essex, and went to Yarmouth and Norwich, where I had not been for many years; and beheld the work of the Lord arising again in that great city, and many were made tender by the powerful impression of the Word of God. Having stayed there in Norfolk about a month, I returned again in peace, rejoicing in the prosperity of the Lord's work, and came by Ipswich, and so home. Shortly after it came in my heart, in the workings of the love of God towards his people, to take a journey once more into Yorkshire, which proved to the mutual refreshment of me and many more. Coming to York a few days before their yearly meeting, I went to Scarborough, whereby many Friends both of Whitby and Burlington, and the country around about, had opportunity of coming to me, when I, through bodily weakness, could not go to them, as I had formerly done. I had much service for the Lord and his people there, both in some particular cases, as also in the general and public testimony of the gospel. Then returning to York, and staying a few days with them at their general yearly meeting, went to Hull, and into Holderness, and tarried thereabouts till about harvest time; and then finding myself clear of those parts, I returned to York, and then to London. After some days and weeks stay there, I returned home.

By this time, I was again overtaken with great pains of the stone and other distempers, which brought my body very low, and little was expected by any, but my departure. I found myself given up to the will of God, which I knew was best of all; and if my service in this world was at an end, I was content to leave it; and if the Lord or the great household had more work for me, I knew he could and would raise me up, and so he did in his own time. I grew again able to go abroad, and got to our quarterly meeting in December, and then after to visit Friends in Harwich and Ipswich, and some other places. But for the most part of this 1681 winter, I was about my own dwelling at Colchester, where I saw my desire in part answered, concerning several who were brought to the acknowledgement and profession of the Truth, whom I hope the Lord will build up by his power, and by the operations of his Spirit; for he alone can give the increase, to whom alone the glory and praise belong.

The next year, 1682, having spent the summer mostly about home and at London, about harvest it came into my heart, in the dear love or God, to go visit his church and people again at and around the city of Norwich, that I might be a means of strength and refreshment to them, in the sharp trials and sufferings that I was sensible were then coming upon them to try their faith and patience. The same day I came into the city, I went to their meeting; and there came one called a justice, with constables and the informers, and a great rabble of wild and ungodly men, who seemed as if they would devour us, and hauled me with about a dozen Friends, to their judgment-hall, where the mayor and aldermen met. Several practices were used to ensnare me, and bring me into bond; but the Lord God of my life was with me, as in former days, and gave me courage and wisdom, by which all their snares were broken. But not having had opportunity to clear myself yet in public, I went the first-day a week following, after I had visited some country meetings, to their meetings in the city, where the Lord appeared wonderfully to bind and limit the adversary. The meetings were very large that day, both before noon and afternoon, because of country Friends coming there, and abundance that were not Friends; and all was quiet and peaceable, for which we gave thanks to God, who we knew was the author of it, and had set his divine power as a hedge about us for his name's sake.

I saw in the light of the Lord that the Friends there were as soldiers, with their armor on, well prepared for the approaching conflict, which came quickly and sharply upon them, after I had left them, which they have borne and suffered with great faith and courage, to the glory of the Lord, and the confounding of their adversaries. The Lord has appeared with them and for them, both supporting them in their sharp sufferings, and sometimes giving them some intermissions from them: so that they are kept alive to his praise, that has quickened and preserved them. Having finished what was upon me there, I returned home, and continued at and about home that winter, and was visited with some weakness of body; and in the spring, round drawings upon me once more to visit the flock of God in the Low Countries, I went first to London to the yearly meeting; where though the enemy had opened his mouth wide devour to us and much persecution was raised against our peaceable assemblies, and we were often deprived of the benefit of our meeting places, yet none could deprive us of the Lord's power and presence, which was evidently manifest amongst us; and the blessed fellowship of life was felt and witnessed to our great joy and consolation; for which high praises were offered up to God, through Jesus Christ, in the humility of our souls.

The yearly meeting of London being over, I went with divers brethren of Dantzic, Amsterdam and Friesland, towards Holland to be at the yearly meeting there at Amsterdam, which was three weeks after ours at London. Taking shipping at Harwich, we arrived safely at Rotterdam, where having visited Friends, we passed together to Amsterdam. A pretty many Friends from several parts had come together, and we had a precious and comfortable meeting, in the unity of the Spirit, and in the bond of peace; which made our hearts glad, and tended to confirm the weak and feeble ones, and to the establishing the testimony of Truth in the hearts of them that had believed in Christ Jesus. My God gave me understanding to open the mysteries of his kingdom, according to their capacities, to our mutual joy and refreshment. So our dear friends, brethren and sisters, departed to their several habitations and testimonies, to Dantzic, Holstein, Hamburgh, and Friesland, etc., encouraged in the work or the Lord, and strengthened in the inward man.

Soon after Friends were departed, it pleased God to visit me again with a very painful attack of the gallstone-colic, which brought me very low in the outward man; and it continued so with me several weeks, with some small intermissions; so that I was wholly disabled from visiting the meetings at Harlem, Alkmaer, and in Friesland, etc. Continuing weak, and finding myself clear, in the sixth month, 1683, I set my face again homeward, and the Lord made my way prosperous; and by the good hand of God was brought home, where in a short time I had a greater exercise to be tried with. It pleased the Lord to call away from me my dear wife, who had been indeed a help mate, and a faithful and loving wife to me for about thirty-five years; and had with a firm faith trusted in God, and had her eye to him in all our sufferings, trials, and tribulations, and had seen before her departure how all had occurred for good unto us, and was satisfied in his will. In this exercise I found the good hand of God bowing my spirit to his will; and I murmured not, but praised his holy name that had let her continue so long with me, and had made her so great a comfort to me in all my afflictions. Hereby does the Lord work, to the fitting and preparing of my spirit, to give up all things visible and mortal, that at last mortality may be swallowed up of life; and that I, and all his dear people may see this work perfected, is my earnest travel and labor.

After my dear wife's departure, I found the Lord still with me, supporting me in his blessed work he had called me unto, and my eye was unto him to guide my way. In the latter end of the year, 1684, I received an opening in the Truth, that the Lord would give me another wife, to be both a comfort and a careful nurse to me; but about the same time, I saw that the Lord had a service for me beyond the seas in the summer coming. I went first to London, and stayed there for the yearly meeting, where I was consoled and refreshed by beholding the glory of God that from day to day appeared, and in beholding the love and unity that increased among the brethren. I then went over to Holland, accompanied with my dear friend, whom I had seen would be given to be my wife, and several other Friends both of Holland and England. The Lord prospered our way, and we came there to their yearly meeting, where we found the enemy had been trying his old strategies, to lay stumbling blocks in the way of the weak, and had caused some to stumble and fall; and a spirit of enmity had gotten up very high, and pretended their matter should be heard at the yearly meeting. And so it was, and the love of God worked wonderfully for their restoration, which after several days labor, was so far effected, that they with joy and thanksgiving came back, and laid down all their weapons of war and contention, and were again brought to a tenderness towards God and his people, to our mutual joy and rejoicing.

While I was in Holland, visiting the meetings there, I heard there was a door opened for the Truth, in a little city in Friesland, called Mackum, which I had long desired to visit. I went there, and preached the everlasting gospel among them; where I was received with great kindness, and the witness of God was reached in several, and a love raised to the Truth, which in the Lord's time will bring forth good fruit.

Then returning into Holland, and having cleared ourselves of what lay upon us there, in the sixth month, 1685, we returned for England; and in some time after signified to our Friends and brethren what was in our hearts, in relation to marriage, which was approved unanimously among them. In the Lord's due time, which was upon the first of October, 1685, we took each other in marriage, and found the Lord with us in it, blessing his own work, and has indeed manifested it, that we are of God's joining; and he has made us a blessing in his hand one to another, and true yoke-fellows, both in respect of our own affairs, and in the affairs of his church and people. For all which, I find my soul engaged to speak good of his name, to bless him, and praise him, and to say with his servants of old, his mercies endure forever.

Indeed she was a woman beyond many, excelling in the virtues of the Holy Spirit with which she was baptized, as she showed forth, both in life and doctrine, which made her to be a sweet savor throughout the churches of Christ, and was a pattern of patience and politeness, discharging her place as a tender and watchful mother to her children, and as a careful and loving wife to me. But alas, as the greatest enjoyments of temporal blessings have their end, so it happened unto me, for it proved the pleasure of the Lord to try me whether I could part with, as well as receive, this great mercy. In the beginning of the year, 1687, she fell into bodily weakness, and continued so two or three months, and upon the 9th of the third month, she slept with the faithful in the Lord, in a perfect resignation to his will, making a blessed end, to my great joy and consolation. Although it was hard to flesh and blood to part with so precious a companion, and to be left alone in my old age, accompanied with many infirmities of body, yet feeling fellowship with her in the joy into which she entered, gives me great satisfaction; knowing right well her portion is with the righteous, and her eternal inheritance is among the just, where sorrow, snares and temptations cannot come.

After she was buried, I went up to London, and conversed among the brethren three months, where the Lord was pleased to bless my service unto many, and then returned to Colchester, where I continued great part of the winter following. In the year 1688, I went up again to London, and visited meetings thereabouts, as I found it upon me, and also some meetings at my return in Essex and Suffolk. About the eighth month, I went again to London, and was there in the great revolution of government; and sometimes as I was able of body, labored with other Friends, with the parliament that then sat in the year 1689, to get those penal laws by which Friends and others had suffered, to be suspended; and by the good hand of God, an act was passed to that purpose, which has proved greatly to the ease of tender consciences.

After the yearly meeting of Friends in 1689 was over, I returned again to my habitation, and continued there the whole winter, not being able of body to travel by coach as I had done, many infirmities growing upon me, yet found daily renewing of strength in the inward man, and the word of the Lord lived in my heart, to be refreshing my soul, and the soul; of many tender babes that lived and grew by the milk of it; and in this is my fellowship with the living, and my labor, travail and prayer, that all may be kept in the feeling of it, for this living word abides forever.

After this he spent his time mostly in Colchester and London, in the services of the Truth, and finished his life on the 28th day of the sixth month, 1692.

By way of testimony concerning Stephen Crisp and his following works.

ALTHOUGH my intimacy with our deceased friend was but of later years, yet I find something in my mind to write concerning him, and a commemoration of God's blessed power, and record of life that reached him, and made him trough faith and obedience unto the Lord Jesus Christ, what he was; for that it is which is most worthy of praise, and without it we are nothing, nor able to do anything that tends to our own peace, or the benefit of others. It was by this, the Lord in the morning of this blessed day that he has caused to spring from on high, visited his soul in this latter age of the world; wherein, after a night of darkness and time of apostasy, he was graciously pleased, by that divine and heavenly light, which he, in the beginning caused to shine out of darkness, to shine into the hearts of many, and gave unto them the light of the knowledge of his glory, in the face of Christ Jesus, and made them possessors of this treasure in their earthen vessels, that were poor and despicable instruments in the eyes of the worldly wise and their own, yet fitted and raised up by the power of him who raised up our Lord Jesus from the dead, commissioned and sent forth by the Lord in the evidence and demonstration of his eternal Spirit, to publish the glad tidings of peace, to preach the gospel of life and salvation, and to turn people from darkness to light, from the power of Satan to God; that they might know remission of sin, and an inheritance among them that are sanctified through faith in the Lord Jesus Christ, the true Light that lights every man that comes into the world.

This ministry, as it was of God, and these instruments being raised, and sent by him, he blessed their labors, and made them successful for the good of many. By the ministry or one of these, though but a stripling, and young in years, viz., that servant of God, James Parnell, who finished his testimony with his blood, and left many seals of his ministry in and about that very town of Colchester, where our dear deceased friend, Stephen Crisp was born, lived, was reached, and convinced of the blessed truth; and by the same word that he preached and was an able minister oft was our worthy friend quickened, and made a serviceable minister of the gospel of Christ, and freely preached the same about thirty-five years. He traveled for that end, in many parts of England, Scotland, Holland, Germany, and the Low countries, endured many hardships, was in several perils, and suffered imprisonment for his faithful testimony, for the precious truth, (as by his own journal of his life may more largely appear), and through his exercise in the same, became capable to counsel and advise those who were under sufferings, and was ready to help them therein. He exhorted to, and practiced charity, and was mindful to do good and communicate, a sacrifice well pleasing unto God; and also to assist many in their temporal affairs and settlement thereof; often pressing Friends thereto, and to do it timely, that no differences, discontents, or trouble might arise after their decease. And was very serviceable in his advice to many widows, and helpful to fatherless children in several respects; being endued with a good understanding both as a man and a Christian.

And he that endued him and gave him wisdom, preserved him in it, and blessed his labors in the gospel, and made his testimony serviceable to many, it being delivered in soundness of speech, with good demonstration, and accompanied with life and power. The consciences of many were so far reached, that they have been made to confess to the soundness thereof, and to the power and truth it came from; and have been brought to be made witnesses, and partakers thereof, and the life and virtue therein, through faith and obedience to the same.

He was also a man that was zealous for truth, and the several testimonies it led us into, against the corrupt world, their ways, worship, vain fashions, and evil customs, and often exhorted Friends to mind the Lord's Spirit, and therein to do his business, and not in their own; nor to boggle or decline their testimony for truth, in any respect, either against the men-made ministers, forced maintenance, or their joining people together in marriage for filthy lucre's sake; or contributing to the repair of their worship houses; or against wars and fighting; and greatly disliked that any indirect way should be complied with by any, to shift or evade their testimony for the truth, in any respect.

Although, in the latter part of his time, he was through infirmity of body, unable to travel much, yet was he very diligent in frequenting meetings, and preaching the gospel therein, and to exhort Friends to brotherly love, provoking them to good works, and pressing them to diligence, and an exemplary conduct, and to train up their youth and children in that way, plainness and simplicity that became the truth, and the humble disciples of our Lord Jesus Christ. The Lord incline the hearts of all that have them, so to do, that none may contribute of that substance God has blessed them with, and made them stewards of, to gratify anything in their children, which may be to their hurt, or tend to impede them from succeeding their honest and tender parents, in that precious truth, and the plainness, humility, self-denial, love and tenderness it has led them into, that the blessing of God may be continued on our offspring; and from age to age, and by one generation unto another, the Lord's worthy name may be praised, his truth exalted, and he renowned, who is worthy for ever. Amen.

In this holy truth, to our comfort, and his great joy, am I well satisfied, did this faithful servant of God finish his testimony and course in this world. And on the twenty-fourth of the sixth month, 1692, being under much bodily weakness and pain, he was visited by his ancient friend and brother, George Whitehead, who gave this account of the same, as the substance of some words spoken by Stephen Crisp, the twenty-fourth of the sixth month, 1692 as follows:

"I see an end of mortality, yet cannot come at it. I desire the Lord to deliver me out of this troublesome or painful body. If he will but say the word, it is done. Yet there is no cloud in my way. I have a full assurance of my peace with God in Christ Jesus. My integrity and uprightness of heart is known to the Lord, and I have peace and justification in Jesus Christ, who made me so, (that is, upright to God). Dear George, I can live and die with you; and my dear love is with you, and to all the faithful in the church of God."

On the twenty-seventh, being the day before his departure, he said, “hope I am gathering, (as his expression was understood), I hope, I hope;" being then scarcely able to speak out his words. George Whitehead near parting from him asked him: "Dear Stephen, would you have anything for Friends?" After some pause, Stephen Crisp gave his answer: "Remember my dear love in Jesus Christ to all Friends."

On the twenty-eighth of the month, he departed this life, and died in the Lord at Wansworth in Surrey, about four miles from London, to which place he was carried for the sake of the air, from the house of William Crouch in London, in a litter, to William Crouch's house there. Being very weak, he was accompanied by several Friends on foot with the litter, lest there should be any want of assistance.

After his decease, his body was brought to Gracechurch street meeting house in London, where on the thirty-first, a great number of Friends and others met to accompany his corpse to the ground, and many living testimonies were borne there, by faithful brethren unto the truth. And then his body was borne on the shoulders of his friends and brethren that loved him for truth's sake, unto the burying ground at Bunhill Fields, and there interred. Several testimonies were also borne there at the grave, to the truth, for the sake of those who yet remain; and that all might love and live in that which makes lovely and living unto God and in his sight; and persevere in diligence and faithfulness in the Lord's work and service, and keep to that Power, and under the government of that Spirit which only is sufficient to enable us to follow the steps of them that followed Christ, and that we might run our race with cheerfulness, finish our course with joy, lay down our heads in peace, rest with the Lord for ever, and have a place in that kingdom that will-never fade away.

That it may be so with all us that yet remain, is my sincere desire and earnest supplication unto the Lord; and that we may always abide in that love, which is the badge or mark of our discipleship, in that Spirit which is the bond of our peace, in that Life by which we have been redeemed, in that grace and faith by which we are saved, and be armed with the whole armor of light, and walk therein; that fellowship with God and one another we may know, and the cleansing virtue of his blood that died for us we may experience, to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. Being so cleansed, may we possess our vessels in sanctification, and continue in the life of righteousness, and in holy fear wait upon the Lord, to be filled with that wisdom that is from above, and clothed with the righteousness of Christ, and covered with zeal as with a cloak, and endued with a good understanding, and guided by his counsel, and be received into glory, and have the end of our faith, the salvation of our souls; is the sincere breathing, and tender supplication of him who wishes the good of all men, and prays for Zion's prosperity, and the peace of Jerusalem, that God would make her on eternal excellence, and the praise of the whole earth.

And now having hinted at the author, commemorated the Lord's power, and commended his Spirit, Grace and Truth, by whom grace and Truth came, I shall, courteous reader, recommend it to you, and earnestly beseech you to apply you heart to it. Let you mind in the perusal of the following writings, be uprightly exercised in them towards the Lord, that you may truly savor from what spirit they came, for what end they were written; and so come to make a right use of them. By your daily exercise and waiting upon the Lord, and living obedience to him, you may be fitted and enabled to succeed in that life, spirit, and wisdom, which he was endued with.

Dear Friends, it is our great encouragement that yet remain, to be faithful to the Lord, diligent in his work and service, zealous for his name, and our respective testimonies for the sake thereof because that blessed Power, Spirit, Life and Wisdom, that raised up, fitted, furnished and endued this, and many more of our ancient, worthy, and honorable brethren, and made them so, blessed be his holy name, is still with us, and as sufficient as ever. The Lord is as willing to fill up the places of them he has taken to himself into the mansions of eternal glory, as he was in tender mercy favorably pleased to furnish them for his work and service, that it may be carried on to his praise and the honor of his worthy name, from age to age, and from one generation to another.

And therefore let us that yet remain, be faithful unto the Lord, freely given up to follow him, and to manifest our love and respect unto our deceased friend and his works, by following that wholesome counsel and Christian advice, he has by word and writing freely and frequently given us; so that we may by the same spirit and power, be enabled to follow and succeed him in his work and service, for the precious Truth.

So with the words of our Lord Jesus, the Way and Truth, I may conclude "If a man loves me, he will keep my words, and my Father will love him, and we will come unto him, and make our abode with him." And in that love I desire always to remain,

Courteous reader,

Your sincere friend and well-wisher,

John Field

George- Yard, London, the 14th of the Third month, 1694.


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